Ms. Blueyes' Life

  OH WOW!!! Already??!!! DANG!!! Where did the time go?!?!?!?!?! Yes, it always amazes me how much time passes between my posts and the changes that occur within myself! I have been actively dropping weight, which is a GREAT thing, but still need to build that consistency in working out! I do NOT know for the life of me why I struggle with this aspect of this journey! I have GOT to figure out what my issue is in that regard - WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO BE CONSISTENT IN WORKING OUT???? Am I the only one that struggles with consistency in working out???? So, as I enter into this year of health, I am also entering this year in prayer. Prayer for the consistency, healing emotionally, relationship with food, and healing internally (physically speaking).  What a year this is going to be!  Here's to a year of health, healing, and consistency building! This first pic - top row was taken 1.6.26 and the bottom row was 6.1.20.  It will be exciting to see what my pics NEXT Janu...

  OH MY WORD !!! Has it really been since March that I have written anything??? THIS is NOT acceptable! So much has happened since March!! I have started with a new coach in May and have lost 37 lbs so far! With consistency, or at least the attempt to be consistent, I'm on the road to losing more! I am in a new relationship which is helpful, as he pushes me to work out and stay on plan. He will be working out with me in the beginning of Nov... HOW SUPPORTIVE IS THAT???? He wants to be there every step of the way - from the workouts, to picking out my suit, to my very 1st show - front row screaming his head off with the rest of my family and friends...  Anyways, it's been quite the ride so far and I see the changes in my body composition! This helps keeping me focused and dialed in... 

  WOW ! I didn't realize that I haven't blogged in quite some time!!! HOLY MOLY CANOLI !!! As y'all know, I've been really struggling for a little over a year now with depression, doubt in myself, lack of self-love, worth, and confidence. I've been trying to figure out the WHY I feel these things or the lack thereof and HOW DO I GAIN these attributes? I've been reading some "changing your mind-set" type of books and they are helping - I am currently working on putting the "tips" or "how to's" into practice.  This journey is LONG and HARD ! I knew when I started this path, it wasn't going to be easy or quick. But I KNOW that it's worth the journey, the hard days, the digging deeper to figure out WHY it's been so difficult to get this weight off. I have thoughts like, "If I just have stuck to 'the plan' and stick with my 1st coach, I'd be on stage competing already"! "What is my problem...

  WOW! Almost 2025 and I feel like I've been stuck in the same place all year long. I am NOT making the New Year's Resolution of "I'm losing weight this year", "I'm going to the gym EVERY DAY ", "I'm eating healthy"... THIS year, I'm saying, "I'm putting my health first", "I'm loving on myself", "I'm taking care of my body and seeing what I can do"...  Yes, my goals are still to compete in bodybuilding - Bikini/Wellness division, but right now, I need to get 130ish pounds off this frame of mine. So one month at a time. One week at a time. One day at a time. And sometimes, I know that it's going to be one hour at a time.  I know that I've said this before, but being 54 years old, I want to live my best, healthy life. I NEED to be here for my son. I'm tired of being out of breath, feeling exhausted, and just down right miserable.  SO - here's to making the changes that I ne...

  WOW!!! It has been several months since I last wrote about my journey here! I'm so sorry for not keeping everyone updated! As you know from previous posts, I've REALLY struggled with this weight loss journey. I don't really know what it is, but it is SO DIFFICULT for me to be consistent with my workouts and even meal prepping. I KNOW what I need to do and the desire is there, but there is SOMETHING that is keeping me from executing what I know I need to do.... and that's me, myself, and I. I stand in my own way. I'm not sure as to why I do this, but I do recognize this.  My desire is to compete in Bikini/Wellness division in NPC/IFBB, but I seem to have the negative self-talk and excuses down to a "T".  I think it's combo of not believing in myself, afraid of what life will look like in a healthier body, how people will treat me/attention that is bound to happen, depressed or tired of how I look/feel in my skin, hate how I feel in my own body! O...

 TIME IS FLYING BY!!! I've been very discombobulated this month and with this move from KY to WI and into my own apartment again. I REALLY need to get into a routine and groove of meal prepping and getting my workouts in on the daily basis. THIS is the BIGGEST challenge for me here lately. There are days where I'm so tired and have NO ENERGY to do the workouts and meal prep on the regular. I need to plan and just DO IT - be a NIKE and JUST DO IT!!! My mind has been all over the place and NOT focused at all. How do I get back to where I need to be - meal prepping, working out, and seeing the weight come off???  I just feel tired. Tired of the meal prep. Tired of the working out. Tired of having this on my brain ALL THE TIME. BUUUUUUT I do have goals that I want to accomplish. I want to be a competitive body builder, but then I have to wonder how bad do I want this? If I'm not "on plan" or committed to working out, what am I doing? Why am I paying for a coach? W...