Ms. Blueyes' Life

  WOW! Almost 2025 and I feel like I've been stuck in the same place all year long. I am NOT making the New Year's Resolution of "I'm losing weight this year", "I'm going to the gym EVERY DAY ", "I'm eating healthy"... THIS year, I'm saying, "I'm putting my health first", "I'm loving on myself", "I'm taking care of my body and seeing what I can do"...  Yes, my goals are still to compete in bodybuilding - Bikini/Wellness division, but right now, I need to get 130ish pounds off this frame of mine. So one month at a time. One week at a time. One day at a time. And sometimes, I know that it's going to be one hour at a time.  I know that I've said this before, but being 54 years old, I want to live my best, healthy life. I NEED to be here for my son. I'm tired of being out of breath, feeling exhausted, and just down right miserable.  SO - here's to making the changes that I ne...

  WOW!!! It has been several months since I last wrote about my journey here! I'm so sorry for not keeping everyone updated! As you know from previous posts, I've REALLY struggled with this weight loss journey. I don't really know what it is, but it is SO DIFFICULT for me to be consistent with my workouts and even meal prepping. I KNOW what I need to do and the desire is there, but there is SOMETHING that is keeping me from executing what I know I need to do.... and that's me, myself, and I. I stand in my own way. I'm not sure as to why I do this, but I do recognize this.  My desire is to compete in Bikini/Wellness division in NPC/IFBB, but I seem to have the negative self-talk and excuses down to a "T".  I think it's combo of not believing in myself, afraid of what life will look like in a healthier body, how people will treat me/attention that is bound to happen, depressed or tired of how I look/feel in my skin, hate how I feel in my own body! O...

 TIME IS FLYING BY!!! I've been very discombobulated this month and with this move from KY to WI and into my own apartment again. I REALLY need to get into a routine and groove of meal prepping and getting my workouts in on the daily basis. THIS is the BIGGEST challenge for me here lately. There are days where I'm so tired and have NO ENERGY to do the workouts and meal prep on the regular. I need to plan and just DO IT - be a NIKE and JUST DO IT!!! My mind has been all over the place and NOT focused at all. How do I get back to where I need to be - meal prepping, working out, and seeing the weight come off???  I just feel tired. Tired of the meal prep. Tired of the working out. Tired of having this on my brain ALL THE TIME. BUUUUUUT I do have goals that I want to accomplish. I want to be a competitive body builder, but then I have to wonder how bad do I want this? If I'm not "on plan" or committed to working out, what am I doing? Why am I paying for a coach? W...

This month has been a busy one! I sold my house in KY - FINALLY!! What a stressful nightmare that had been! Just so glad that is over with! Now, on to BIGGER and BETTER chapter of life to come! We moved back to WI to take care of my aging parents, have my son be with his besties to go through high school with, working PT to keep me busy, but also allows me more time to be able to be in the gym! I've got goals to crush! Once I changed how I saw myself and what I wanted for my future, I began to have the resolve of things that are non-negotiables.  These items being: drinking all my water, eating on plan, and working out (getting some type of movement in).  Here are the results of ONE WEEK:  -5.4 lbs and 4"!!!  The last pics below is from Jan1 and then today...

 MAN!!! TIME IS FLYING BY!!!   Here it is the middle of June and I can't believe that I haven't posted for a couple of months! UPDATE on weight loss journey: 1. I went with a new Coach - Built to be Different -  Kayla Kirajyan   and Chandler Vec (shortened last name) and am really liking how they are challenging me and working with me and my mindset. That and consistency have been my BIGGEST challenges on this journey! 2. LOTS has been happening where I've been a little derailed here for several weeks. From putting my house on the market, moving to another state, helping my Mama w/ my Daddy (advanced stages of Alzheimer's and her own health), getting my son registered and ready for high school in the fall w/ football and classes, starting a new job, needing to close on the house in KY...need I say more???? 3. Weight has been going up due to me not being consistent - with meal prepping, working out, water intake, sleep.... back to the grind as I am NOT happy w...

  Hello Bee Hive family! It's been a little crazy over here at the Bee Hive! So many things have been happening and going through some tough stuff, but also some exciting news as well! First, the EXCITING news! Even though I have been living in KY for 2 1/2 years, and really loving the area, I'm moving my little pea pod family (my 14 yr old son and I) back to WI to help my Mama with my Daddy. He has Alzheimer's and is fading more and more and she needs help. That's not the exciting part. The exciting part of that is that we will be reunited with family. My younger brother lives across the driveway, but Mama needs more help. I will be putting my house on the market beginning of April and PRAYING that we can get top dollar for it as we make the move back up north. We hope to be back up there 1st of June. So, we've been busy packing boxes, sorting, selling, de-cluttering things to be able to present our best for the buyers. It's stressful being a single Mama, worki...