Ms. Blueyes' Life

  OH MY WORD !!! Has it really been since March that I have written anything??? THIS is NOT acceptable! So much has happened since March!! I have started with a new coach in May and have lost 37 lbs so far! With consistency, or at least the attempt to be consistent, I'm on the road to losing more! I am in a new relationship which is helpful, as he pushes me to work out and stay on plan. He will be working out with me in the beginning of Nov... HOW SUPPORTIVE IS THAT???? He wants to be there every step of the way - from the workouts, to picking out my suit, to my very 1st show - front row screaming his head off with the rest of my family and friends...  Anyways, it's been quite the ride so far and I see the changes in my body composition! This helps keeping me focused and dialed in... 

  WOW ! I didn't realize that I haven't blogged in quite some time!!! HOLY MOLY CANOLI !!! As y'all know, I've been really struggling for a little over a year now with depression, doubt in myself, lack of self-love, worth, and confidence. I've been trying to figure out the WHY I feel these things or the lack thereof and HOW DO I GAIN these attributes? I've been reading some "changing your mind-set" type of books and they are helping - I am currently working on putting the "tips" or "how to's" into practice.  This journey is LONG and HARD ! I knew when I started this path, it wasn't going to be easy or quick. But I KNOW that it's worth the journey, the hard days, the digging deeper to figure out WHY it's been so difficult to get this weight off. I have thoughts like, "If I just have stuck to 'the plan' and stick with my 1st coach, I'd be on stage competing already"! "What is my problem...