Ms. Blueyes' Life

*How much I feel like I belong in Africa, more and more each day *How much I want to be working where God wants me to work *How much I really want to be with this man from Ghana and wonder if it's really ever gonna happen??? *How my mom keeps getting sick/hurt/in pain and I can't be there to comfort her *How I'm going to be an auntie for the 6th time!!!! *How I have so many dreams and wonder if any of them are going to be coming true in my lifetime

Well, today would have been Chaylie's 6th birthday already! An almost 1st grader!! WOW how time flies... At times, I am glad she is not here to experience or see Mommy strugglin'... but of course my heart aches for her so deeply on some days, that it is beyond me. It's weird... there will be days that I don't think about her or miss her... yet, there are other days where she is constantly on my mind. Today, is one of those kind of days. I haven't cried or boo-hoo'd, just quiet. Reflective. Mommy loves you Chaylie...and I miss you with ALL of my heart, soul, mind, and being... see you in Heaven...

Well, here I sit on May 15th... a Friday night... and what am I doing? Laundry and writing yet another paper... UUUGGGGHHHHH!!! I will be SOOOOOO glad when these programs, especially this class that I'm in right now is over and done with!!! I'm in Strategies for Competitive Advantage... WHAT THE ?&(#O(!!!! Talk about SNOOOOZVILLE!!! I had to go to my local school district office to gather some stats to write this paper and incorporate the info with a scenario that the prof wrote... AGAIN... WHAT THE &#*^!!!! Ok... on to more pleasant things... I'll be walking in commencement July 11th and my parents surprised me by telling me they are flying out for the graduation ceremony!!! My younger brother and THE GANG are coming too!!! I'm soooo excited to have my whole family (minus the big brother) there and see where I live, friends and meet my adopted KY family that I have here... SO C'MOOOOOON JUUUUULY!!!! That's the thing that is keeping me going.... O...