Nasty November...
WOW!!! It has been several months since I last wrote about my journey here! I'm so sorry for not keeping everyone updated! As you know from previous posts, I've REALLY struggled with this weight loss journey. I don't really know what it is, but it is SO DIFFICULT for me to be consistent with my workouts and even meal prepping. I KNOW what I need to do and the desire is there, but there is SOMETHING that is keeping me from executing what I know I need to do.... and that's me, myself, and I. I stand in my own way. I'm not sure as to why I do this, but I do recognize this. My desire is to compete in Bikini/Wellness division in NPC/IFBB, but I seem to have the negative self-talk and excuses down to a "T". I think it's combo of not believing in myself, afraid of what life will look like in a healthier body, how people will treat me/attention that is bound to happen, depressed or tired of how I look/feel in my skin, hate how I feel in my own body! O...