Ms. Blueyes' Life

 I can't believe that it's ALMOST OCTOBER ALREADY and I haven't posted since June??? What the what???!!! Well, let's just say that there has been a lot happening since I last time I posted! This summer was difficult mentally, where I wanted to give up COMPLETELY on myself and not look back. Family issues (Daddy has Alzheimer's and declining pretty quickly and Mama is physically slowing down) to being a single Mama of a 13 yr old boy - it's been mentally/emotionally taxing! But I KNOW that I'm not the only one in this universe that has multiple things going on at the same time and even more difficult circumstances than I do. Point is - I CANNOT GIVE UP ON MYSELF!! I've had to  A LOT of soul searching to come up with the resolve that I need to do this for my health - not to just compete in bodybuilding - but just be healthy and be around for my son. The stage will be there and I just need to focus on being the BEST version of myself at all times.  STAY...

  SOOOO much has happened within the last few weeks that I need to write it all down! I have really dealt with a COMPLETE mindset shift within the past couple of weeks! I was struggling with how I was feeling about myself and how my weight loss journey was going. I get so discouraged and disgusted with myself when I don't see the scale move down. Instead, it was GOING UP!!!  How frustrating is that?!?!?!?!  But then I had to sit with myself to really see what I was doing to cause this. I had to be honest with myself and know that I was NOT eating on my food plan or even working out consistently. My main issue is... CONSISTENCY!  This is what I had to realize and come to terms with. I then listened to a pod cast called "Know Your Power" by Julia Rene (an IFBB Wellness Pro) and it really rang true for me and really hit me hard.  There were 6 things that she was saying in order to be successful in weight loss journey and bodybuilding. They were: 1. What is your ...

Is it me or is the year already flying by?!?! I CANNOT believe it's Feb. 1st already and I didn't even blog in January! Oh my goodness! I'm slacking in a big way! Well, so much has happened since I last blogged...  *I left the VA Medical Center 12/2/2022 and started a job at Danville Independent Schools - same schedule as my son, so both of us a MUCH HAPPIER! No more commuting/long drive hours, wear and tear on the car AND me, able to be Mama to my boy, and doing what I actually love - helping students learn and be successful! *I already received a "promotion" at work - I started off in the cafeteria in Dec and at the end of January, was moved into the classroom as an Instructional Aide!  *The District Superindendent asked if I would be interested in the Equity Coordinator/Officer position that is going to be opening up in May/June time frame. I would FINALLY be able to get off of SSDI, possibly buy a house, get out of debt, and breathe financially! What a great ...

 And yet another month has passed by - Feels like so much happens, that I don't have the time or energy to keep y'all posted! SHOOO WHEEEE!!! I have changed jobs!!! No more commuting over an hour each way to work, hours on end of missing time with my son, having to get up at 3AM to workout or attempt to, and the list goes on and on.... I now GET to get up at 6:30AM, spend a lot more time with "the boy", only work 4 hrs a day at the local school district, and be able to be on break when my son is! WHAT FREEDOM!!  Now I will have more time to devout to improving myself, encouraging others on their journey, just being more CONSISTENT with my own journey - what an EXCITING time this is... Here's to a GREAT year - starting today - NOT the 1st of the year... you can start your journey today !

 Is it REALLY OCTOBER 2022 already???!!!! HOLY MOLY CANOLI! !!! I haven't written since Aug? THIS is NOT ok.  There is so much that needs to be said and written down and get out.  This journey of health is such a MENTAL game it's not even funny! I've been in a really dark place mentally for a little while. I don't know why or where it has come from, but I know that I need to come up out of the darkness. I just know I have to stay regular on my meds, get my mindset right, back on plan, and workout consistently. I need to get back the mindset AND belief that I can do this - no matter what! And it's not even about competing...  When I started this journey, it was just about getting healthy and losing weight. I need to take the pressure off myself of THE STAGE and just get back to wanting to be healthy and live longer. Back to the basics I go and not get so far ahead of myself or get caught up in the other athletes that I follow, I lose sight of what I'm doing f...