Ms. Blueyes' Life

 Can you believe that it's FINALLY 2021?!?!?!?!?!  YYYYEEEESSSS!!!!  I am praying and hoping that each of you had a wonderful Christmas with family/friends.  There are so many different feelings ... excitement, wonder, determination, mentally ready to get going on my goals for this year!  What are you most looking forward to for this year? These are just some of the habits that I plan to implement - and believing in myself that I can accomplish my goals this year - to lose 80+ lbs this year and gain lean muscle. I am also implementing reading at least 10 pages of a personal development book of some sort - working out daily - drinking my gallon of water daily - and eating on my meal plan with NO treat meals.  What are YOUR goals for this year? What do you want to accomplish for yourself? How can I help you get there?

 I sit here going through in my mind, the mental struggle this journey has been. I look back at what mental state that I was in to where I am now. I started this weight loss journey on a serious effort May 2019 at the weight of 349 lbs. I then hired my Coach - Melanie Martin IFBB Pro - to take it to the next level in May 2020. I started with her at 289 lbs. I have then gotten down to 262 (currently at 264) and have lost 20 inches!!!!  I have had a hard time mentally being strong to push through since July 2020, but still trying. In the past I would have just given up and said, heck with it all. But then I caught the bug of body building and wanting to compete. I hated runnin (which was what I was doing for exercise  - loved the community - hated the running aspect of it). Here, I feel powerful, strong, confident (in most areas). Where I am lacking is the mental game that this sport is - which to be honest, is the most important one of them all. I have to conquer my fears ...

 How is it December already and I have noticed that I did not post at all in the month of NOV!!! WHAT??? Was I THAT busy or consumed by life to not post? Itt was a crazy month and emotions were and are all over the map it seems. I'm learning how to handle the emotional side of eating and being healthy. To change one's behaviors from a negative to a positive is taking more time than I liked. It is a continuing process of changing life long habits.  I will try to do better in posting - it has been an emotional month of Nov, but still need to document my journey of being morbidly obese to competition stage...

  Progress Report... Top is today: October 28, 2020 Bottom: May 1, 2020 More inches lost than weight, but my composition is changing!! These past 2 weeks I was NOT 100% on plan, didn't give my all in the workouts, & didn't get all my daily water in. I can't expect change if I don't change my habits and trust the process. I trust my Coach @exl7bcamp, but wrestling with trusting myself. I'm a work in progress... I CAN DO HARD THINGS!!! I am a LADYBOSS! 💪 🔥 💥 **** # GoalsToCrush   # FutureWellnessCompetitor 👙 👙   # HardWork   # LoveMyCoach   # ProgressNotPerfection   # NutritionIsKey   # Nutrition   # HealthyMama   # MomsWhoLift This is NOT an easy road to travel - NO WAY - NO SIR! But we all have to start somewhere. I have to keep reminding myself that the longer I sabotage my eating/workouts, the longer it's going to take to get on stage to compete. Here's to the next 2 weeks!

 Here it is in the middle of October already! TIME JUST FLIES BY!!!   I did my progress pics for my Coach this past Wed and in the past 2 weeks, I've lost 12.2 pounds!! WHAT THE WHAT???!!! I just have to stay on this path, eat what is on plan, workout and give my all in the workouts and it WILL pay off. I have to be patient (yeah, that's a hard one for me), TRUST the PROCESS, and TRUST my Coach! Here are the pics:  The top was taken this past Wed, Oct. 14th and the bottom is when I started with my Coach - May 1, 2020. Before I started with my coach, I was doing the LadyBoss program and lost 60 pounds in a year. I hired Coach Melanie Martin, IFBB Pro to take me to the next level. I then caught the bug of being on stage to compete in a competition - WELLNESS.  This Blog is to document my journey - the good, the bad, the ugly - all here.  Trust the process.... YOU CAN DO IT!

 Can you believe that it's October already?? HOLY MOLY CANOLI! !!  Well, I went to CA this past weekend to surprise my bestie for her wedding... WHAT A TIME WE HAD!!!  However, with all that good time, came bad eating choices. But I knew going in that I was not going to be eating on plan.  When I got home, I sure enough had gained weight from that weekend - but again, NOT surprised by it at all. So, went grocery shopping, meal prepped, and staying on plan - let's see where these next 2 weeks take me! I'm ready to shred this fat and get busy changing my body composition. Here are the progress pics and other things to help those that may be struggling....

 As I sit here on September 21st - I wanted to apologize for not keeping a better record of what's been going on and being able to document my journey to be a Wellness BodyBuilding competitor.  I can see that this is going to be a long, hard road, but going to be OH SO WORTH IT! As you know, I have really struggled mentally this past summer. I don't know really WHY it has taken so long to get out of this "funk", but I have to get it together in order for me to push through and compete when I want to. My Coach says about 3 years...of course I'm too impatient to wait that long and want to do it in 2 years. WELLLLLLL, in order for me to do that, I need to get my head in the game and stop playin' around! I need to get serious about my diet - the workouts - and just mentally getting stronger. The workouts have been great! I've been pushing myself to go hard - I've even increased my weights to 10 lbs each side vs. only 8's - so this is great! Now, I need...