HAPPY 2026!!!

 OH WOW!!! Already??!!! DANG!!! Where did the time go?!?!?!?!?!

Yes, it always amazes me how much time passes between my posts and the changes that occur within myself!

I have been actively dropping weight, which is a GREAT thing, but still need to build that consistency in working out! I do NOT know for the life of me why I struggle with this aspect of this journey! I have GOT to figure out what my issue is in that regard - WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO BE CONSISTENT IN WORKING OUT????

Am I the only one that struggles with consistency in working out????

So, as I enter into this year of health, I am also entering this year in prayer. Prayer for the consistency, healing emotionally, relationship with food, and healing internally (physically speaking). 

What a year this is going to be! 

Here's to a year of health, healing, and consistency building!

This first pic - top row was taken 1.6.26 and the bottom row was 6.1.20. 

It will be exciting to see what my pics NEXT January are going to be and what I will look and FEEL like!

October 2025

 OH MY WORD!!! Has it really been since March that I have written anything??? THIS is NOT acceptable!

So much has happened since March!!

I have started with a new coach in May and have lost 37 lbs so far! With consistency, or at least the attempt to be consistent, I'm on the road to losing more!

I am in a new relationship which is helpful, as he pushes me to work out and stay on plan. He will be working out with me in the beginning of Nov... HOW SUPPORTIVE IS THAT???? He wants to be there every step of the way - from the workouts, to picking out my suit, to my very 1st show - front row screaming his head off with the rest of my family and friends... 

Anyways, it's been quite the ride so far and I see the changes in my body composition! This helps keeping me focused and dialed in... 

Almost March!!!!!

 WOW! I didn't realize that I haven't blogged in quite some time!!! HOLY MOLY CANOLI!!!

As y'all know, I've been really struggling for a little over a year now with depression, doubt in myself, lack of self-love, worth, and confidence. I've been trying to figure out the WHY I feel these things or the lack thereof and HOW DO I GAIN these attributes? I've been reading some "changing your mind-set" type of books and they are helping - I am currently working on putting the "tips" or "how to's" into practice. 

This journey is LONG and HARD! I knew when I started this path, it wasn't going to be easy or quick. But I KNOW that it's worth the journey, the hard days, the digging deeper to figure out WHY it's been so difficult to get this weight off. I have thoughts like, "If I just have stuck to 'the plan' and stick with my 1st coach, I'd be on stage competing already"! "What is my problem"? "Why am I having such a hard time with this journey"? "When I get 'stuck' in life and plateau, why is it so difficult to get back on track"?

These are the questions that I think about, am working on answering, and trying to grow from. I believe that I'm FINALLY at the point where I am creating my plan and to execute it to achieve the goals that I have set out for myself. I just need to believe in myself and KNOW that I can do it, and just show up for myself.  To be CONSISTENT in this journey is what is the most difficult thing for me to do. 

I have realized that this is a LIFESTYLE change, NOT A DIET! So to incorporate NEW behaviors and actions is a slow process. But just taking one step at a time is how it will become a habit and a non-negotiable in my life.

Here's to a new lifestyle!!!

Here it is...almost 2025!

 WOW! Almost 2025 and I feel like I've been stuck in the same place all year long.

I am NOT making the New Year's Resolution of "I'm losing weight this year", "I'm going to the gym EVERY DAY", "I'm eating healthy"... THIS year, I'm saying, "I'm putting my health first", "I'm loving on myself", "I'm taking care of my body and seeing what I can do"... 

Yes, my goals are still to compete in bodybuilding - Bikini/Wellness division, but right now, I need to get 130ish pounds off this frame of mine. So one month at a time. One week at a time. One day at a time. And sometimes, I know that it's going to be one hour at a time. 

I know that I've said this before, but being 54 years old, I want to live my best, healthy life. I NEED to be here for my son. I'm tired of being out of breath, feeling exhausted, and just down right miserable. 

SO - here's to making the changes that I need to make in order to be healthy. I also want to be more consistent with my blogging and making YouTube videos to help maybe encourage others on their health journey. 

It takes a village.

Here's to a NEW YEAR of HEALTH - 2025!

Nasty November...

 WOW!!! It has been several months since I last wrote about my journey here! I'm so sorry for not keeping everyone updated!

As you know from previous posts, I've REALLY struggled with this weight loss journey. I don't really know what it is, but it is SO DIFFICULT for me to be consistent with my workouts and even meal prepping. I KNOW what I need to do and the desire is there, but there is SOMETHING that is keeping me from executing what I know I need to do.... and that's me, myself, and I. I stand in my own way. I'm not sure as to why I do this, but I do recognize this. 

My desire is to compete in Bikini/Wellness division in NPC/IFBB, but I seem to have the negative self-talk and excuses down to a "T".  I think it's combo of not believing in myself, afraid of what life will look like in a healthier body, how people will treat me/attention that is bound to happen, depressed or tired of how I look/feel in my skin, hate how I feel in my own body! One would think that these things would be  motivating factors to get healthy and get this weight off, but for some reason it's not. That part I'm still trying to figure out. 

There are days where I DO believe in myself and I KNOW that I can do this, but for some reason I self-sabotage and I talk myself out of working out or back to meal prepping on a consistent basis. I do NOT know why I do this to myself or what I gain from it - other than. more pounds!

Suggestions on how to break through this type of self-sabotage? How to change that line of thinking - besides the typical answer of "Just set your mind to do it" or "Just show up for yourself and KNOW that it will become a habit", etc. 

All I know is - at this rate - I'll never get on stage and achieve that goal or dream of mine. I'm 54 years old and I don't want to regret NOT doing it or wishing I had stuck to it to do it. 

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

(The picture of me was taken at my last check-ins Nov. 18, 2024)

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Can it be half way through August already????

 TIME IS FLYING BY!!!

I've been very discombobulated this month and with this move from KY to WI and into my own apartment again. I REALLY need to get into a routine and groove of meal prepping and getting my workouts in on the daily basis. THIS is the BIGGEST challenge for me here lately. There are days where I'm so tired and have NO ENERGY to do the workouts and meal prep on the regular. I need to plan and just DO IT - be a NIKE and JUST DO IT!!!

My mind has been all over the place and NOT focused at all. How do I get back to where I need to be - meal prepping, working out, and seeing the weight come off???  I just feel tired. Tired of the meal prep. Tired of the working out. Tired of having this on my brain ALL THE TIME. BUUUUUUT I do have goals that I want to accomplish. I want to be a competitive body builder, but then I have to wonder how bad do I want this? If I'm not "on plan" or committed to working out, what am I doing? Why am I paying for a coach? Why am I investing in competition "stuff" if I'm not taking this seriously and doing what I'm needing to do to get to stage? I need AND WANT to get it back together and have to realize that not every day is going t be.good day or one where I want to "eat on plan" or even go workout. But if I want to compete and get this weight off for good, I have to keep reminding myself that this is a lifestyle change, not just a "one time deal".  

Almost August...

This month has been a busy one! I sold my house in KY - FINALLY!! What a stressful nightmare that had been! Just so glad that is over with! Now, on to BIGGER and BETTER chapter of life to come!

We moved back to WI to take care of my aging parents, have my son be with his besties to go through high school with, working PT to keep me busy, but also allows me more time to be able to be in the gym! I've got goals to crush!

Once I changed how I saw myself and what I wanted for my future, I began to have the resolve of things that are non-negotiables.  These items being: drinking all my water, eating on plan, and working out (getting some type of movement in). 

Here are the results of ONE WEEK:  -5.4 lbs and 4"!!!  The last pics below is from Jan1 and then today...