Is it really OCTOBER????
Is it REALLY OCTOBER 2022 already???!!!! HOLY MOLY CANOLI! !!! I haven't written since Aug? THIS is NOT ok. There is so much that needs to be said and written down and get out. This journey of health is such a MENTAL game it's not even funny! I've been in a really dark place mentally for a little while. I don't know why or where it has come from, but I know that I need to come up out of the darkness. I just know I have to stay regular on my meds, get my mindset right, back on plan, and workout consistently. I need to get back the mindset AND belief that I can do this - no matter what! And it's not even about competing... When I started this journey, it was just about getting healthy and losing weight. I need to take the pressure off myself of THE STAGE and just get back to wanting to be healthy and live longer. Back to the basics I go and not get so far ahead of myself or get caught up in the other athletes that I follow, I lose sight of what I'm doing f...