Well...
I sit here a day after my 39th birthday and I do feel older.... Not because of the number on my body years, but the experiences that I have faced and gone through in my life. 2 weeks ago, I was given the experience that would change my life FOREVER! I found out I was 6 weeks pregnant from my little excursion in Hilton Head Island, SC over the 4th. The father wants nothing to do with the baby, so here I go at it alone. Feels like the 1st time all over again, but in a different way. Yes, I feel abandoned by the baby daddy, but I don't feel abandoned by my HEAVENLY FATHER - who is WAYYYYY more competent and trustworthy than any human here on earth. I thank Him for this blessing amongst my sin - the consequence of my blatent sinning against God, but is turning out to be used by God as a blessing and learning tool for my spiritual growth. AMAZING...
1st Dr appt is tomorrow and I hope to get an ultrasound to see Lil' Bean...lol...
What life brings....
