Struggling.....

As I sit here in my living room on a Friday night at 12:35am...I'm feeling very.........LOST.  I've been having some serious medical issues going on and in the past I've just pushed through it and trained. But lately, well, in the last 3 months, I have barely gotten out there to wog (walk/jog). 

I signed up to do the Princess Challenge 1/2 marathon and was really excited to do it.

HOWEVER, due to the migraines and nausea all the time, it would make it very difficult to do 13.1 miles. THIS is very frustrating and I'm seeing where not working out is setting me back physically, mentally, and emotionally.  Physically, I've gained weight back, and getting winded again. Mentally it has taken a toll - seeing myself in the depression cycle/spiral and it's very hard to get out of it. Emotionally, how I feel about myself - mad for not getting out and train, angry at the CONSTANT migraine and nausea, fear that the Dr's can't figure out what's causing these issues, sad that I can't seem to get my eating under control and the fear that at times, I really don't care about it. That TERRIFIES me, but how do I get out of this funk when the physical pain is CONSTANTLY there?

Something needs to click inside me to get back on track and take my health back.....

Pray for me y'all....

Checking in....

As part of my training for the Princess Challenge coming up in 2 WEEKS... I want to log my miles...

Yesterday, I was able to log in 5.34 miles - I needed to do 8, but body was telling me to stop at 5...

I love my Mama's running group - MRTT - Mother's Run This Town - as they not only keep me accountable, but they run with me as well! NO WOMAN LEFT BEHIND! No matter what their personal pace is, someone is always willing to stay behind for us slow pokes...and keep up motivated and moving... <3 p="" that="">
Here's to more miles to come!

Progress in the month of Sept...

Here it is September 6th, I have already completed 6.58 miles! This is WAY better than what was accomplished in July AND August COMBINED!!! Yup, I'm back!!!

Even though I have been fighting migraines for the past 3 days, I have to push through. The Dr says that walking/light jogging is good for me and will HOPEFULLY help the migraines go away or at least decrease.  I go to UC DAVIS Headache Clinic to see if there is anything that they can do - more than what my Neuro Dr is already doing. If they are not able to do anything, then off to Stanford I go.

All that to say, no matter what you are facing physically, mentally, emotionally, or even spiritually - YOU MUST KEEP GOING! Do what you can for THAT day! From doing stretches/yoga - to riding a bike, running, swimming, Zumba, weights - JUST DO SOMETHING every day.

Because HE is watching me.....

Today I was due for a long run but I wasn’t well. I had a migraine. I've been fighting one for about 3 days now.  My migraine has subsided but I wasn’t feeling all that great to kill the run today.

About midway through, it finally hit me. I stopped my run and sat on the ground. I kept thinking, why…why do I have a headache/migraine EVERY DAY? There has to be a reason. Is it because I am strong enough to handle all of this? Am I really a pain warrior? Is it because I can fight it through?

As I start feel defeated, my little man Lincoln, sees me with my head in my hands and says “Mama what’s wrong? Are you ok? Do you have another headache?” Today, I let him see what I go through…

I told him that my head was hurting a lot and it was interrupting my running, but that wasn’t going to stop me from continuing. I told him that it felt like an elephant was sitting on it. "You can do it Mama, I'm here with you.” I decided that I will not let these migraines beat me. I know I have the power to over come and beat them to the ground. Yes it hurts, yes it’s tough and yes it makes me cry, but knowing that I am stronger than these migraines makes it worth it.

You never know who is watching and who might be inspired by your strength, your journey, or your struggles. Keep going for your dreams and goals. Never EVER give up on yourself or your goals. Yes, at times it’s easier said than done. Believe me, I know that. When I feel like my strength reserves are running low, something always happens and they are charged right up. My little got me through my 5 miles today and I finished because of him. He gave me the strength and motivation I needed, because he believes in me so much, and was watching me VERY closely.

I work hard to make him proud. I work hard so he sees what it takes to get to your dreams. Nothing in life is easy. When you are dealing with migraines it makes life five times harder, but that doesn’t mean you have to give in it. You get up and lace your shoes to battle them because you inspire the little ones. They look up to you and want to be the superhero you are when they look at you.

New Month....New Goals....

Here it is Sept. 3, 2016. I've started out the month with 2.33 miles and will continue to press on to finish well for the month.

I have a 1/2 marathon at the end of the month - the Princess Challenge here in Granite Bay WITH HILLS!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! It will be tough, but I will press on and forward until I cross the finish line...

UPWARD and ONWARD... HERE WE GO!!!