WOW! I didn't realize that I haven't blogged in quite some time!!! HOLY MOLY CANOLI!!!
As y'all know, I've been really struggling for a little over a year now with depression, doubt in myself, lack of self-love, worth, and confidence. I've been trying to figure out the WHY I feel these things or the lack thereof and HOW DO I GAIN these attributes? I've been reading some "changing your mind-set" type of books and they are helping - I am currently working on putting the "tips" or "how to's" into practice.
This journey is LONG and HARD! I knew when I started this path, it wasn't going to be easy or quick. But I KNOW that it's worth the journey, the hard days, the digging deeper to figure out WHY it's been so difficult to get this weight off. I have thoughts like, "If I just have stuck to 'the plan' and stick with my 1st coach, I'd be on stage competing already"! "What is my problem"? "Why am I having such a hard time with this journey"? "When I get 'stuck' in life and plateau, why is it so difficult to get back on track"?
These are the questions that I think about, am working on answering, and trying to grow from. I believe that I'm FINALLY at the point where I am creating my plan and to execute it to achieve the goals that I have set out for myself. I just need to believe in myself and KNOW that I can do it, and just show up for myself. To be CONSISTENT in this journey is what is the most difficult thing for me to do.
I have realized that this is a LIFESTYLE change, NOT A DIET! So to incorporate NEW behaviors and actions is a slow process. But just taking one step at a time is how it will become a habit and a non-negotiable in my life.
Here's to a new lifestyle!!!
