Happy Valentine's Day!

 Here it is the "Day of Love" that is celebrated EVERY YEAR... 

What happens to those of us who do not have that "special someone" in our lives to share it with? What do we do?

I say that we love ourselves - not in a selfish way - but in a self-care way. We love ourselves enough to fuel it with nutritious food. We love ourselves by our movement/exercise to keep our heart, what we love with metaphorically speaking, strong. Blood flowing. Muscle and bones strong! 

It has been a month and a half since I last wrote - working on my mental state and emotional well-being to love myself and realize that it's not being selfish, but self-care. 

So, I don't have to have that "special someone" in my life to tell me and show me that they love me. I show up for myself every day. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

 Can you believe that it's FINALLY 2021?!?!?!?!?!  YYYYEEEESSSS!!!!  I am praying and hoping that each of you had a wonderful Christmas with family/friends. 

There are so many different feelings ... excitement, wonder, determination, mentally ready to get going on my goals for this year! 

What are you most looking forward to for this year?

These are just some of the habits that I plan to implement - and believing in myself that I can accomplish my goals this year - to lose 80+ lbs this year and gain lean muscle. I am also implementing reading at least 10 pages of a personal development book of some sort - working out daily - drinking my gallon of water daily - and eating on my meal plan with NO treat meals. 

What are YOUR goals for this year? What do you want to accomplish for yourself? How can I help you get there?

Christmas in a Week???

 I sit here going through in my mind, the mental struggle this journey has been. I look back at what mental state that I was in to where I am now.

I started this weight loss journey on a serious effort May 2019 at the weight of 349 lbs. I then hired my Coach - Melanie Martin IFBB Pro - to take it to the next level in May 2020. I started with her at 289 lbs. I have then gotten down to 262 (currently at 264) and have lost 20 inches!!!! 

I have had a hard time mentally being strong to push through since July 2020, but still trying. In the past I would have just given up and said, heck with it all. But then I caught the bug of body building and wanting to compete. I hated runnin (which was what I was doing for exercise  - loved the community - hated the running aspect of it). Here, I feel powerful, strong, confident (in most areas). Where I am lacking is the mental game that this sport is - which to be honest, is the most important one of them all. I have to conquer my fears of failing. The self-doubt is real. Can I really do this? Am I mentally strong enough to get on stage? Can I be consistent with not only my meal plan, but my workouts that it's going to take to get me to the level that I want to achieve? 

My ultimate goal: Go to Ms. Olympia and WIN IT!

My first goal: Fat Loss

Then: Compete and win my class that qualifies me to go to Nationals

Then: Go to a National show and win my IFBB Pro Card

Then: Compete on Pro level - get sponsorships, possibly be a fitness model, etc.

Then: Qualify to go to Olympia

I know that this can be done - just going to take the mental toughness and consistency to get there. So what am I going to do to prepare me for all of this: 75 Hard. 75 Hard days of 2 a day workouts that are 45 min in length with one of them being outside, reading 10 pages of personal development book, drinking a gal of water daily, no sugar, no cheat meals, and... being honest about it - if I mess up one day - back to square one.

So, starting Dec. 28tth - I'm starting this with a few of my friends to help with accountability and support. They are competitors too (at least they've done 1 show).

Here is the latest progress pics... 

Top is May 1, 2020 when I started with Coach at 289

Bottom was Dec 10, 2020 at 266

SLOW BUT SURELY

December.... ALREADY????

 How is it December already and I have noticed that I did not post at all in the month of NOV!!! WHAT??? Was I THAT busy or consumed by life to not post?

Itt was a crazy month and emotions were and are all over the map it seems. I'm learning how to handle the emotional side of eating and being healthy. To change one's behaviors from a negative to a positive is taking more time than I liked. It is a continuing process of changing life long habits. 

I will try to do better in posting - it has been an emotional month of Nov, but still need to document my journey of being morbidly obese to competition stage...

Updates...

 Progress Report...

Top is today: October 28, 2020
Bottom: May 1, 2020

More inches lost than weight, but my composition is changing!! These past 2 weeks I was NOT 100% on plan, didn't give my all in the workouts, & didn't get all my daily water in. I can't expect change if I don't change my habits and trust the process. I trust my Coach @exl7bcamp, but wrestling with trusting myself. I'm a work in progress... I CAN DO HARD THINGS!!! I am a LADYBOSS!💪🔥💥
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This is NOT an easy road to travel - NO WAY - NO SIR! But we all have to start somewhere. I have to keep reminding myself that the longer I sabotage my eating/workouts, the longer it's going to take to get on stage to compete. Here's to the next 2 weeks!

Updates....

 Here it is in the middle of October already! TIME JUST FLIES BY!!!  

I did my progress pics for my Coach this past Wed and in the past 2 weeks, I've lost 12.2 pounds!! WHAT THE WHAT???!!!

I just have to stay on this path, eat what is on plan, workout and give my all in the workouts and it WILL pay off. I have to be patient (yeah, that's a hard one for me), TRUST the PROCESS, and TRUST my Coach!

Here are the pics: 

The top was taken this past Wed, Oct. 14th and the bottom is when I started with my Coach - May 1, 2020. Before I started with my coach, I was doing the LadyBoss program and lost 60 pounds in a year. I hired Coach Melanie Martin, IFBB Pro to take me to the next level. I then caught the bug of being on stage to compete in a competition - WELLNESS. 

This Blog is to document my journey - the good, the bad, the ugly - all here. 

Trust the process.... YOU CAN DO IT!

OCTOBER!!! WHEW!!!

 Can you believe that it's October already?? HOLY MOLY CANOLI!!! 

Well, I went to CA this past weekend to surprise my bestie for her wedding... WHAT A TIME WE HAD!!! 

However, with all that good time, came bad eating choices. But I knew going in that I was not going to be eating on plan. 

When I got home, I sure enough had gained weight from that weekend - but again, NOT surprised by it at all.

So, went grocery shopping, meal prepped, and staying on plan - let's see where these next 2 weeks take me! I'm ready to shred this fat and get busy changing my body composition.

Here are the progress pics and other things to help those that may be struggling....